Having Emotional Breakdowns

Hello everyone, Jaycee here. And today I want to talk to you guys about something which has been on my mind for a very long time, emotional breakdowns. I started getting these back when I was about 13, and I started to have more as I got older. I remember, when I was 14, I got quiet a lot, I like a guy at the time, and he blocked me I had this big one, I kept wondering, ''Am I pretty?'' ''Am I ugly?'', all this stuff was going though my mind all at once. And by 15, I was having one every night, I never really told my family about them, I still haven't, but I knew I had to do something. So I made a list of things which might be causing me to have them, and it all pointed at one thing, me being trans gender. This has been something which has been on my mind from about the same time my breakdowns started, and I never really thought about the two being connected, until I started college in the September of 2014, when I took the big step to come out to my college course, that helped, but I didn't feel like that was enough. I still had a lot of breakdowns, but not as much, but I wanted them to stop all together, and I knew I was still getting them due to the same fact of me being trans, so I decided I needed to tell everyone, and I mean everyone. So, in March of 2015, I came out to all of my friends, and the breakdowns just stopped, like, really stopped. Until August this year, when I had one when I was at home alone, it was horrible, I was alone, no one there to help, no one to talk to, I felt like I was the only one, the only one who understood. And since that day, I knew I wanted to help people in a simpler state as I was back then.

I want all of you reading this, your not alone. Whenever it feels like your the only one in the world who's going though whatever your going though, your not, and you will never, there will always be someone who understands.

Thats it for today, please pass this on to friends and family, even the girl/boy at school/college/work who you never really speak to. Cheerio,

~Jaycee